What's Going on in my Life! 
Lately our relationship is nothing. We don't talk, we don't fight & we don't spend anytime together.
If he doesn't sign up for school, I am going to ask him to leave, he knows this, but I am getting really scared of what I will do if he leaves. How will I take care of my family properly?
I love my husband and I want to spend the rest of my life with him, but we can't go on like this, if it is mental and he needs help, how do I get it when he doesn't want it?
Sometimes I wish I could die, but then I would be hurting my kids, family & friends.
What I want is for him to change and us work together towards getting out of this mess and if he needs help, getting it. Of course, winning a million dollars would help too, but that isn't going to happen.