Hi,
I want to share my story with you guys and you can judge. No one have to be with me or insult me etc. I am only telling what I think and telling my story.
I am a 19 year old boy. I fell 4 times in love with girls, and I have got a relationship with them. It was all cute and innocent…
Till one month ago, I was chatting on msn and I have met a boy; We talked a lot, he was very nice to me and I was very nice to him. After a while we started "liking each other"…
OK I don’t know what it was but I want you to tell me :
Every time I speak to him my heart starts jumping, I get a strange feeling in my stomach. All I thought about when I was at school is: When will I be at home so that I can talk to him.
We didn't talk about S*X or something just about normal life etc.
After a While I become crazy; I couldn't sleep I couldn't eat. All that I could think about was him.
But I didn't know what was wrong with me, I didn't want to believe it was LOVE. Because I have never liked a man or even thought about it. I have always loved girls and got sexually attracted by girls.
One day he sent me an email and he told me that he is in love with me and he wanted to know what I think about it. Of course I was happy about it and I told him that I love him as well. We began talking more and more on msn. I was really in love with him.
OK can someone tell me what's the problem now?
I am Muslim and Arabic and I am in love with someone that I haven't met in REAL LIFE, and that will take time (till I see him in real life).
Why is it disgusting and stupid? Do you think we do it because we follow the Americans? We both are not the biggest fans of the USA because I am Iraqi and He is Palestinian. We just followed OUR FEELINGS that god gave us.
Can you control your feelings? Did god give you a remote control to control them? (astgfer allah).
Btw don't say I am not Muslim etc. because of very easy reasons:
1. I believe in God.
2. I’m Proud in this country for BEING MUSLIM while they don't love us. 4. I fast EVERY RAMADAN since I was 9.
5. I have read the Quran.
6. I hate lying.
7. I don't steal.
8. I love being "Arabic" and I am VERY proud of it.
9. I help poor people I donate every month money for poor people, (although I don't like talking about it, it's personal).
Tell me what is wrong with me? Am I not Muslim now just because I am in love with a guy. Those are FEELINGS that GOD GAVE ME? Say whatever you want to say cause I know how I am and I know how a GOOD Muslim I am.
I am not saying I AM A PERFECT MUSLIM.
But I hope that you guys will understand me and tell me what's wrong?
I just want to prove that love is love. And btw our LOVE IS JUST feelings. We don't love each other cause we want sex, (if that is so I can go to Amsterdam right now and choose a Justin Timberlake look-a-like and have sex with him! It's normal here in Holland.
But that's not the case, I LOVE him...
It's pure and innocent. Especially because it's only through msn and we will not see each other in years.
Of course we talked about sex and how it's possible we love each other etc. but it's ONLY TALK.
Thank you all.
Fahad.
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umm...this is really weird..that ur coming up with ur feelings and stuff..it's very courageous of you. however, i was reading this book recently and the guy who wrote it was saying how such feelings are only spontaneous and very easily replaced with other truer ones. i guess both of u guys r torn between cultures trying 2 find some1 who shares ur same feelings..in fact identical 2 u in so many ways..u found those characteristics in him and not in those girls u dated. that's normal..what it isn't normal is if u pursue that path, act on those feelings and develop the, ur right ; it is disgusting.and u say ur a good muslim..good 4 u..then u should know that this is haram. God gave u feelings so that u can direct them elsewhere, not 2 another guy like u. end this. block him. go away.that's my advice. good luck .
In a way, Allah is testing you and you MUST MUST not act on those feelings. they are haram and besides you could still love him as a friend there's no harm in that but if you feel like your feelings towards him are nothing like friendship, then I suggest you tell him the truth, tell him that what you are doing is WRONG and that you should help each other fight this. My suggestion is that you stop chatting and get yourself a hobby to keep yourself busy and prey to Allah for forgivness. PREY and PREY ...
YEAH OK VERY BELIEVABLE STORY. LOOOOOOL.
pull the other leg. whoever wrote this story (and i guarantee it is a fabricated story) knew exactely what he was doing. let us choose two boys from IRAK AND PALESTINE like this no one can accuse them of following the USA. let us call him fahad a typical khaleeji name because most ppl here on this site hate khaleejis. and lets cover the story about homosexuals because that topic was covered a few days ago. actually homosexuals, and king fahad (may god help and protect him and give him health and a long life), palestinians, irakis, etc.... were all topics on WALEG in the last week.
COME ON WALEG OR WHOEVER WROTE THIS FABRICATED STORY IF YOU NEED IDEAS AND YOU ARE RUNNING OUT OF THEM I WILL TRY TO HELP.
MOI HAS SPOKEN!!!!
I've read your story, let me tell you something.
I know what you'll say, as many of my relatives who live in Europe or US, that you'll defend your Islam, it isn't perfect as you said, but it could be !
But the good point that you remember God when this happened and you know that there is something going wrong, and you try to not make sins.
You know when you start to feeling yourself in problem ? Its when you're far from God ... Believe in god without praying for him neither thanking for all what he gave us, is never enough. The only relation between us and god is our prayer, if you broke this relation, you broke every nice thing in your life ! just try to pray, at least 5 daily prayer ! It won't take more that 5 minutes but you'll see yourself how you'll change.
The second thing is love in islam, there is a "pure love" I wish that you find it, is to love "God" and his prophet "Mohammad PBUH". Make this love the number one in your life, then your parents and family, then everybody else "for god" what we call "hob fi allah".
First find your way to "God", and be sure that there is many ways to guide our feeling and protect ourselves from making sins, god is always with us !
Islam isn't only what we say, its about what we Do ! and god knows better.
moi..wat is it with u? let me make u face reality : IT AINT ALL ABOUT YOU ALL THE FREAKIN' TIME! NOT YOUR PLEASURE AND SATISFACTION, NOT YOUR JOY AND HAPPINESS, NOT YOUR PEACE WITH YOURSELF! there are other people out there in the real world with feelings..and problems that need 2 be addressed. don't go about harassing every1 like that.
louka&randa it is the time to tell guys i really love you because at least you 2 girls like me,i really somtimes when i go for bed i aske my self what all this about,who cares love me or don,t, those people who most of them posts her for long time are my real freinds, we shared our moments hapeness and sadness school times divided us some went to US and others went to UK we had amoments of broken hearts and bodies splited into 2 parts ,tears and hope for future that's why guys we don't like others to insults us if for example i give you 2 names sihem&ahbal just try once to watch their posts when it comes to khaleej insults. you see the first posters other wise they have no interset in other subjects and now my friends it is your option to forgive me
Heeeey.. my name is ahmad and i'm from lebanon... i read the story and they are not doing anything wrong because love is just feelings, can we control our feelings? nope..... some replies here sux and unrespectful, who are you? and why u speak in the name of God? so shut up and go to hell!! and second, why do you hurt them? is it their life, is it up to them to choose who do they love?
you are really illiterate, ro7o la2lko besi wal3bo feha bkon 27sn ya RANDA, w MOI ( ur mind and thoughts are fabricated),
Hey people,
I wanna start with mr MOI.
Man iam sorry 2 tell you that you are a sick person.
iam tottaly with you randa thank you.
you are wrong man the story is written by me. it tells my OWN story.and not a made up story.
Second : iam not dieng because of the fact that you guys are trying 2 judge me.
I don't care @ all because iam not afariad of any1 expet god, he is the one who will judge me later and not any1 of you.
I wanna answer some "questions" and i wanna ask some also.
1: man don't keep telling me go and pray. People i Pray everyday , not for you guy's i pray for god and because i love him and believe in him. BTW iam even trying 2 convince the boy i love 2 start praying everyday. i want him 2 love his religous more than ever. we must be proud of being muslims.
2.If iam far from god than i would have never cared about this. i would say f*ck this all. but i can't i have god in my heart and it's soo easy 2 live free and do what ever you want here in Holland.And not give a damn about your religion.
but iam not like that. i will stay muslim/pray/being good human/treat others well/not lie,not steal EVEN if i will go and live on moon.
3. I haven't not choose 2 be in love with the palestinian boy. it's just the feeling and emotions that god did gave me i don't see where iam wrong. Am i wrong because iam in love with a boy? But i love him with the feelings that god did give me , iam sure that you guy's haven't really felt in love withsomeone if that so is, than you guys must understand they are feeling that YOU CAN"T CONTROLL.
4. iam not far from god @ all. if that is the case i will never keep in "contact" with him by prying and being a good human. (i don't see iam wrong by loving a boy). I have never been scared of someone of something because deep in my heart i have god.
5. Guys when you will see me and know how i really am you will understand iam a "good" human and what iam doing is not wrong. I have never hurt someone i have never let someone stick. i even do things that i don't wanna do just because i wanna help because of the fact that god told us help and love each other.
Iam sorry that no one have read the story in a good way and did understand it.
before you guys judge me try 2 understand me and know me better.
there are allot of thing i wanna answer and fellings that i wanna explain but it's hard 2 do it because much of them are feeling that i can't describe in words.
If you have mquestions just ask me. wanna comment on my "shit" just do it in a good way. and not by saying YOU ARE WRONG and that's it.
Thank you. Thank you waleg for putting this on the site it means allot for me 2 tell how i feel.
Fahad,
So far I don't see anything wrong with what you said. You love this guy that you have never seen. The only unusual part is thatyou never met or seen each other.
I am a married manwith children. I love my family a lot. I have a male friend that I love dearly, he is my best friend and I love him as abrother and more. We talk almost daily and he knows all my secrets, he is always there for me to count on when I need him. I am always there for him. There has been never anything sexual between us and there will never be.
This guy you met could be your true honset friend.if si that would be a perfectly healthy relationship.
Now you nned to explain to us your sexual feelings towards him... do you feel sexually attracted to him? If you don't then you have a normal stronger than usual friendship. If you do have sexual feelings, then you have other issues to take care of. Please disucss that and tell me your age.
MOI
Buzz off. Your act is getting old and boring... don't you dare judge anyone~ I bet you are a 13 year old kid trying to prove your adulthood with words bigger than you.
Moi!
You are so crazy believing that it's a made up story....I don't know what's wrong with you khaleejy always on the defensive....
Amal, Rose and....etc the rest of ignorants..you guys need to seek some psycholigical help..you really need it in case you are adults...but I forgive you if you are just a bunch of kids...wich really fits you.
As far as me not responding to you guys because you are too low for me, and you are adding to the reputation of khaleejy ....
Fahad!
I honestly believe, your feelings are not true...you are just 19yrs old ...a teenager..young girls and boys your age go through a lot of confusions. I would advice you to not think about your friend in a romantic way. Make your brain erase the idea of loving him more than a friend. Pary to God Al Estekhra...you'll be gided....Focus on something else, your school, your hobbies...etc...try to meet girls...
Good luck to you...
Allah Ma33ak